Re-valuations

“And came as beggar to Thy yard

To question earthly valuations

Of those who under-scored his heart

In their greedy speculations”

Inspired by Polish romantic classic
Where do I stand with,
The value of that tiny bit of me
Which really matters
Am I good.
Or am I just deluded?
What are worth my beserkish battles
To improve people and the lives around me
When I feel that mine 
Doesn’t bother anyone.
Me included.

Is there any sense in daily struggles
To sacrifice myself,
When nobody’s there awaiting redemption.
And when they get some relief 
From my service,
They walk away smirking.
That they fooled an idiot
To a bargain. 

 And yet it’s all intentional,
Yes, it’s not a battle-cry
Of a warrior 
Ready to charge the whole armies. 
As a vanguard of courage
Ready to perish,
Without “Lest we forget”

They are a petty tantrums 
Of an infant
Crying for 
A bit of attention,
And the
“Whole Lotta Love”