Growth

“I was searching, I was looking

For meaning,

I was wandering, desperately trying

Only to see

I have nothing missing”

Fearless Soul “I am already enough” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFQ7qiqm6WA
It’s been
18 long years
Of my detention
Since last I was seen
As it appears
With soul, mind and body
Infestation

And I am now
A different somebody
A person who knows
And don’t have to bow
And who can feel, and touch
And love as it goes
Without chemical crutch

No, it doesn’t always
Come that easy,
I can still be disturbed
In life’s dark hallways
By my own people – pleasing
And acting like retarded

I make constant mistakes
One then another after
Too many as it may
But as much as it takes
I have become a grafter
Correcting them all the way

And I’ve learnt 
How to fight
How to put the effort
Even if getting burnt
I can still see the light
And follow it therefore

I went through every plight
A man is here to get
Life's normal human trial
Some gruesome in their might
To bring you hurt, upset
Some straits a little dire

I went through happy turnings
Life gives to make you proud
But wisdom has been learnt
That always pride returning
Some reasons for more doubt
Which makes your ego’s dent

I am now grown up
Still young at spirit though
I think I’ve filled the gap
Which once was in my soul