Hope

Marian was a friend of mine,
He had it all,
I wanted,
He could write
better songs than me.
He played and sang
In a popular band.  
They would even sell tapes,
And get paid,
He had a blonde, 
Girlfriend
I envied too.
And then
He hanged himself,
In his room. 

People had different. 
Theories 
Of the cause 
Of that
Unfortunate 
Occurrence.
I even thought,
It was me
being rude
to one girl.
Which pissed him off.
The night before,
We drank
But you never know.
It’s been
30 years
He would be
50 
Next year

Since 
I’ve met
Couple of thousands
Potential Marians. 
And some of them
Even followed his way.
Some died 
of "natural" causes
At the age of 30
or 40
or had accidents
of sorts
Some recovered
I live
I was on occasions.
Pretty close too,
But probably
Too scared 
Finally
I asked
For help,
And the 
Help 
Was given.

I just hope
You’re safe.
And for that
I pray.