Emptiness, Void of any sense And non-sense either Just a bit of pain. But it's really Nothing.
“Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace.
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Where there is hatred, let me bring love.
Where there is offence, let me bring pardon.
Where there is discord, let me bring union”.
My hormones Are almost back to normal, Pain recedes, Void of meaning And sense Remains.
“Where there is error, let me bring truth.
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Where there is doubt, let me bring faith.
Where there is despair, let me bring hope.
Where there is darkness, let me bring your light.
Where there is sadness, let me bring joy.”
Void of love Void of her smile Void of any … Motivation Though dopamine Still fairly high Serotonine quite normal And testosterone plummeted But that's rather good news, At least for the thyroid.
“O Lord, grant that I may not so much seek
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to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love,”
I know the way, I haven’t betrayed it. I haven’t done anything wrong, She hasn’t either. Why then I feel betrayed.
“for it is in giving that one receives,
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it is in self-forgetting that one finds,
it is in forgiving that one is forgiven,
it is in dying that one is awakens to eternal life.”
I know, “That too shall pass” The only problem I don’t want that to ever happen. I don’t want to forget. I don’t want that cursed sainthood Anymore
Amen.
St. Francis of Assisi