Longing

I long
Every second
Of your presence
Every smile
You try to hide
From my view
When you’re in
Welcoming mode (sort of)
And every bitchy look
With which you try
To fend me off
When you’re not
Every sighting of your car
When I drive
To the end of the hedge
Which means
I will get a chance
To meet you today.

I even miss the moments 
When you ostentatiously
Showing me
How much you ignore me
Or flirting with other guys
In front of my eyes. 
I constantly revise
Every sentence
We’ve ever exchanged
Before you went silent.
And I count
Every silent passing
In the corridor

I inhale deeply
The strong scent 
Of your perfumes
In the morning air
When I walk
Through the car park
A minute 
After you
And dance to 
The distant sound
Of you voice
Heard behind the walls
And muted by running water
I can feel your warmth 
On every object 
You touched before me
…
I long anything
Related to you
And as long as I am concerned
I probably
Will