The Truth

I saw it 
Today
In the eyes of 
Another girl
Distrust
Dissonance
Disrespect
Disdain

These all 
Were also present 
In your looks
So many times
But then
You would sneak
A tiny glimpse
Of hope
In your 
Quirky games
So,they kept me believing
Against all odds,
Or maybe because
I couldn’t do otherwise

Now I know
Actually 
I’d always known
I’d been played
Like that before
And it always hurt
Like fucking hell

So I know
Now
I have no chance
Like a mouse
In cat’s claws
The cat will
Sometimes play
With it
But the end
Is always 
The same

Yet, the love
I feel for you
Screams in me
Courageous battle cries
Prompts to 
Fight on

So I guess
We’ll keep 
Dancing around
Hurting more 
And more
Until the pain
Kills 
The love
Or me

But at least
You are
Safe
I’ve made a pact
With God
About this.