Attonbitus

“Ubi (est) thesaurus tuus, ibi cor tuum”

Mattew 6:21
I am here …
Made my mind
Or rather 
It’s been made
For me
In absentia
I stand still
Paralyzed 
Stunned
Waiting
For any change
Of the fate
Any move 
Any window of opportunity
Either to get closer
To you
Or escape
From your spell

I am tired
By that vigilant 
Waiting
Too scared
To move myself
In any direction
To make any move
To scare you away
Like a hunter
Trying to catch 
A very special 
And precious 
Bird
Without harming
Your feathers

Fighting 
Simultaneously
Both
Desire
And hesitation
Holding the breath
While
Almost bursting
With excitement
Exhausted
Yet
Still exhilarated
With your
Phenomenal 
Yet phantasmagorical
Presence

Hic ego sum
Tibi

Some music as follows https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSImPWqj0ZA