“If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’”
Rudyard Kippling – If
Music here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7t5cRm2CIts
I had
Other human’s blood
On my hands
Many times
And on my face
And their other
Bodily fluids
Scattered all over
My skin
And clothes
Sometimes
I had to
Squeeze
Shit
Out of a person
IN A LITTERAL
Sense
With
Accompaniment
Of
Him screeming
It’s not
Easy
To trigger somebody’s pain
Even if
The Cause
Seems to be
Justifiable
And it
Pains you
When you do that
To somebody
You love
The most
And it is
Excruciating
To watch them
Dying
When
You can’t
Do anything
I had
Mad children
Attacking me
With all objects
On their
Disposal
When
I tried to protect them
And I protected them
I have passed
All the tests
However
It didn’t
Feel
Like accomplishment
Never did
Don’t get it wrong
I want YOU
To smile
To be happy
Satisfied
To enjoy
Life
Every day
And every second
And I am ready
To spend
Every day
And every second
Of the rest
Of my life
Just focusing
On that one
Goal
But life
Has shown me
Its complex
And brutal face
And God
Has taught me
That not all
Suffering
Is …
At least
I know
It was necessary
To grow
At least
Some of it
So…
I will be there
If you need
To scream
If you are
In pain
I am ready
To make it
Mine
As well
I will be there
If you are angry
Frustrated
I will be ready
to become
The target
Of your emotional
Vomits
If you need me
There
I cannot promise
I will never
Get angry
Or frustrated
But I won’t stop
To love you
Then
I know
That’s a lot
To boast
About
Still
I am talking
From
The Experience
That is
The blessing
Of my age
I will…