Hope

Marian was a friend of mine, He had it all, I wanted, He could write better songs than me. He played and sang In a popular band. They would even sell tapes, And get paid, He had a blonde, Girlfriend I envied too. And then He hanged himself, In his room. People had different. Theories … Read more

Just for today

Emptiness, Void of any sense And non-sense either Just a bit of pain. But it’s really Nothing. “Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace.Where there is hatred, let me bring love.Where there is offence, let me bring pardon.Where there is discord, let me bring union”. … My hormones Are almost back to normal, Pain … Read more

Sonnet? (to M.)

Yes, your beauty Haven’t gone unnoticed today, Nor it was ever questioned before In my head … The Oracle has proclaimed Thee The One And Michael Bolton has already sung His song Like only twice before In my quite a long life. Yes, I got stunned, And put up my boorish face (excuse the pun) … Read more

Pearls before swine

“Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.” – KJV, Matthew 7:6. Talking of values, Yours, maybe mine… In the days of the past A man was, What man did, That’s what, Maggie Thatcher Once said, Or … Read more

Recruitment

I cant’t tell you, What I’m planning to do in 5 years time. I can describe to you, how far my imagination can venture in this direction, And trust me, We can travel far But that is pure creation, I am fucking good at that, Not a real plan at all. It’s the Excell way … Read more

Just asking.

HP,… Are you there, Or here, Anywhere, We’re about to talk now, Seriously, You know me, I don’t have a clue About you, And that’s all right. It’s true. You know everything I am made of. I don’t even dare guessing The nature of your Being. But I’ll venture To beg for that small favour. … Read more

Golgotha view

He saw it all With the last beam of light Squeezing past the dying pupil. A hologram built of one photon Of Consciousness. He saw that girl, Stroking a cat And the cat was murmuring The song of pleasures Digesting a bird, he’d murdered a while. And the girl felt a warm excitement, Practising before … Read more

Re-valuations

“And came as beggar to Thy yard To question earthly valuations Of those who under-scored his heart In their greedy speculations” Inspired by Polish romantic classic Where do I stand with, The value of that tiny bit of me Which really matters Am I good. Or am I just deluded? What are worth my beserkish … Read more

Rage

Rage,Technically speaking,I am sitting in a cosy armchair.I nearly killed somebody,Driving like a bullet,Cutting corners in a quest for stochastic punishment,Punishing myself for her sins,And I thought I was building Cathedrals,Amassed heaps of random dreams,And sexual desires,Self-pity dripping persistently,And constant fear of rejection,Were supposed to be formed in bricks,And laid in orderly fashion.Soldier of fortune … Read more